stick by my side...

dear awesome, 

HAPPY BERFDAY LOVE !

love, cooooolllbbeeaaannnnssss

:)

okay lets begin with the series of events from last week...

Thursday, my older sis and my nephew came into town. I love them bunches, my nephew is bad but extremely cute lol.

friday night we [ me, my dad, my sis & nephew]  left for New York. 

It was a trip to look at my future college, Parsons the new school of design. I was suppoe to tour it and go to the information session and all that ish on monday. So when we got in NY it was like 12, when we got there all my little cousins and my little sister were still up ! they're all like in single digit age range ... they needed to be asleep. we didn't get to sleep till really late because we got bum rushed.

the sleeping arrangement for the little girls, a pull out bed...

fighting over a chair, lets just say it ended in tears [the girl won]

saturday and sunday were both thee same all the kids stayed in the house with grandma connie while my dad and my papa went to play golf. on sunday me and my sister judged a dance contest... lol i was being mean, if they sucked i told them they sucked lol !! but they took it well but my little cousins who were sisters they had me rolling..... they were dancing extremely hard...like they were killing it. I was crying it was so funny...

my dad took me to get some ice cream on sunday too from dairy queen with rainbow sprinkles.... i could eat that everyday. It started out a search for a klondike bar but they were no where to be found so i settled for an ice cream cone :D

Monday... i woke up early in the morning because we had to catch a train to the city at 7 in the morning...it was an hour and a half ... then we ate breakfast.... it was good but it cost 16 bucks for some simple crap [eggs bacon an toast]

then we caught the subway to 14th street so i an go to my info session.... i told my dad it was ten and he was like, "ok".

we got to the school and they were like oh they left cause it started at 10 and my dad was like i thought it started at 10:30... i was kinda heated ... we had to walk down the street a little and they were in that building . It was alot of  "foreign" people in there...i was like lawd, i have to compete with people from different countries ?! 

you know they real smart because they take an education extremely serious...

but it was okay it was over at like 11:45 and my dad was like do you wanna walk around and i was like, idc... then i was getting frustrated because we were just walking random places. So we ended up leaving the city early...i didn't get to tour the school or the campus or the dorms... like i was convinced i would. Because i had to go home on Monday so we had to be back in time to catch a plane :(

we caught a 6 o'clock flight that evening and came home. That night my brother Corey came over to see us and he came over on tuesday morning to see my sis and nephew before they left.

now my days are back to being boring an uneventful...

`coolbeans.

Adele be the business [:

ok so

i jess got back from the mall a wittle while ago ...

maybe top 5 worst mall experiences of my liiiife !
it was jess alot of ugly people trynnah talk to me . 1 - w.e. 2 - uhmm now 3 - not even gonnah go there ..
and what do yooouu know ! 3 of the ugliest niggas (these so cali kids got me sayin that sheesh ! >: | ] tried to talk to me .

• one of 'em was like soooo super crazy and was bouttah get the dog shit slapped outtah him
• one , they said another one was trynnah steal my phone
• and the lass ... he was jess ugly .

w.e. enough about those hoes
when we had first got there it was me , kammy , kammy's friend , and the friend's friend . so we go to the movies or w.e. to see TheDarkKnight . omg , i wanted to love that movie so bad but it jess wasnt doin it for me . towards the end it was jess gettin really wierd . i wasnt payin so close attention but still ... HEATH L. ROCKS MY WORLD but uhmm , yeah . =/


yesterday i tried to watch PrettyWoman at Pam's home but it was curfew so i had to go back home , so i took the DVD got it home and there was a friggin parentral control lock on the TV ! pissed was i , oh yes .
w.e.



"oh yes , im the Villain . still Love me ? "
-- awesome ;

yes please ...

ok.
i be back !

so umm ....
we went to the mall to get something to wear to keenon's party and omg i got the cutest shirt ! :]
they said it was hoochie at first but when they saw me in it they was like oh its coo . so yep
we also went to target . i got pizza bites because i was so starvacious ! -_-
they were so scrumptious ! im actually makin more now .

umm so ..
OH YEAH !! i got attacked by a two year old this morning !! i was like gimme a hug, so she gave me a hug or w.e. and walked off .. so like 3 minutes later im sittin on the floor in front of my suitcase trynnah find something to wear and she run's up outtah nowhere like "GIMME A HUUUUUG !!!!!" and freakin attacked me then proceeded to choke the happy shit outtah me !!!
it was semi-hilarious at the moment but now its straight lmao-style

ok so ill deff get back with ya when i got some thangs to say !


your bestie,

a!$*&!@%
<3

oh so very BOMB hoe ! ;]

to my dearest coolbeans,

wtc hoe ?? why does your head look funny in all those pics ?! lol . that sounds mean but w.e. truth hurts !! deff: ILY <3

love,
aWESOMe

MMK. so my mama pissed me off in a big way today when she said "tell Erin shes NOT buying any more jeans because im tired of them"
... what kinda effed up BS is that supposed to be ?! idk why im surprised this is probably the hundreth time shes said im not buying anymore of something because shes tired of it. it still makes no sense to me however "/


uuups we're leaving bbl



i havent proofread so please excuse ...

ignant !

lol 

just a little bit or ignorance for the morning.

[click ignorance]

untitled

i think he was enjoying that one.

FREE COKE !

lol some guy we wondered what was up with his hair.

"DEAR AWESOME, 

thankies 'bout my lil saying lol...

i had something else to say but i forgot :/

yea-up ! 

`coolbeansssss"

okay so yesterday i went to the coca-cola factory. It seemed like a super short tour and we didn't have a tour guide so we were just roaming around. I was originally suppose to go with my friends ninja and cookie buddumm.... ninja wanted to get her hair done O_o & cookie just couldn't come because his parents don't trust him....

-looking around-

kinda sad rii... thats my bud i don't understand why they wouldn't ...

ANYWAYS...

so i ended up going with my friend GUIDO...lol. It was fun even though it was just us two. His sisters and his little cousins were there with us first but they just went to the park and we ate and they left. Then we (me&guido) went to the coca-cola factory. omg when we got there it was a long behind line ! but by the time we bought our tickets an went through the medal detectors we were about to go on the tour we didn't have to wait long.

we get in and they do a game show lol... they had volunteers come up and guido volunteered... the host guy called all the volunteers bob even though he mad them introduce them selves. they were going against us the audience. 

then we went to watch the animated factory documentary, the guy talking in there looked like a tall kip (from napoleon dynamite) and he sounded like him too LOL. He said his name was Chris ....he was funny in a like sarcastic way . Then we went in walked through hundreds of years of knowledge about coke but it was some super cool technology in there. THEN we went upstairs to the tasting place omg BEVERLY TASTES LIKE POISON and it smells like idk that cinnamon hard candy. awful but me and guido race and drank as many sodas as we could.... i suck lol... i was so slow i felt like i couldn't drink fast enough. but we got a free soda and it was cool.

lol

reflections

so i was jess reading my first blog ...

wow. i swear if i didnt know myself id be like "thats one crazy hoe :]" but i do so im like "w.e." lol.

but yeah...
im in alot better mood than i was earlier today.

its funny how i would blog very couple of moths or something and now this is my second time blogging today!! ... both blogs have been about nothing in particular but still ... tehehe :D

.. i jess changed the font color thingy to yellow :]]
my fav color!!!!

i cant really see anymore but i think the background thing-ma-bob is black so thats good

but if its not .. OOPSY ! MY BAD!! "/


LOTS of love, awesome <3

lala

dear coolbeans,

the quote at the end of "fareal" is deff super sexy! Kudos!!! :DD

love always.

AWESOME :]




okay. im sitting in my cousins room bored as usual.

HOLY MOLEY! my auntie jess bbusted in nakey and told me that during my cousins party im gonnah have to stay in the back room because its too dangerous. w.e.


anywho .
back to being bored. im bored. and everyone left me! kammy, keenon, and racheal [ keenon's friendgirl]. so now im here w/ my naked aunt, my crazy uncle, and my cousin who i have nothing in common w/ mostly because of the fact that shes 21.... o boy i hope they come back soon even tough im 95% sure they wount be back for a few days.

w.e. maybe i can go shopping ... doubt it.

i think im depressed ... hmm.
according to quizlet. com depressed means "to diminish the activity, strength, or to lower in spirit & mood"


im depressed.
and i have nothing left to say.
goodbye.


sincerely,
not so awesome.

o yeah

this nigga fuxin' matt rob a nixxa heart !

he wanted me to come to his freakin' frackin' boxing match....then he tells me he not gonna do it anymore....then he says he wants to take me to the movies on saturday (yesterday) ! 

No call no nothing....

so i was like ard.... that's koo... don't ask me to go anywhere else !!!!!!!!

liars.... ugh...

`coolbeans

fareal

This is really one of the worst summers...

okay so yesterday i had plans to go over my friend Gavin's house and my dad was gone ALL DAY.

fuxin' guy.

Then when he gets home like 6, i asked him could he take me....he was planning to go to my friends, dads, birthday party.... so i was like i'll be over there while you're at the party and you can come get me. Then the excuses come flying out ! "i have to come all the way out there to get you ?!...i'm gonna be so tired !..." so by this time i'm on the phone with my friend and they're both talking at the same time. I wanted to tell my dad that i'll drive home but i knew this weak negro would come up with some other stupid excuse. so i cut both of them off and said, OKAY I GUESS THAT'S A NO ! 

hung up on my friend. walked away from my dad.

all of my days have pretty much been the same.

...

...

...

yesterday i watched 27 dresses and semi-pro. 27 dresses great movie...i like movies like that. Semi-pro was kinda dumb but it had its funny moments. I talked to my friend mike about college and i laid around all day. today i had plans to go get my hair done but that changed. Tomorrow i might go see batman with some friends and i need to get my friend Alia something, her birthday is on tuesday...i wonder what she's doing because i might have to kidnap her for my trip to the coca cola factory ! ....i still have to ask if i can go though.

i planned the stupid trip.

coolbeans.

beesh i'm the bomb like tick tick ... :D

oh gosh.

yeah. um. i feel weirdo-ish because this is like my second time blogging and coolbeans'z 900th. im not even sure if a post is the same as a blog. im feel'n pretty crabby all of a sudden...



well w.e.! omfg!! i read coolbeans'z recent blogs and i have a few things to say ..
1. my father i pretty darn weird.
2. i dont think i ever want to eat my grandmothers food again.
3. COOLBEANS IS AWESOMELY WEIRD! ;]




ANYWHO. so im spending this summer in Cali, and usually i have ridiculous amounts of fun but this time is very diff. idk. i dont really regret coming out here because i had some fun .. but its kindah suck-ish. and its really bad because this is my lass summer before im officially in high school. :[[
which brings me to the fact that im dreading high school. >:o
oh gosh. like what if i have no where to sit at lunch and have to sit w/ the scary kids or in the bathroom or something !? :'[[ IM LIKE SOOO FLIPPING OUT!
or what if im walking down the hall and i jess get pushed into a trash can or something??? what'r you supposed to do if that happens????? i wish i was having a super fun summer so i wouldnt even have time to think about that junk. "/



oh gosh.




well these days im in a relationship w/ this one guy ... yeah hes kindah the bomb-ish at times but idk .. w.e. !
enough about him. im bored and miss my friends!!






oh boyy! you know how i was reading coolbeans'z blogs or w.e. well i saw that she got her bar!! YAY HER !!!
i actually wanted to get my cartilage pierced but mow im having second thoughts ... not because of the pain or anything jess because of the fact that i wasn't something edgier but i want it now. and i know im not getting too much edge w/ the parents i have now :[[ idk if i should get it now, or wait until i can get something i really want. and im not even 300% sure i want that. gosh! i fiend for the edge!!

randoms: i wannah go school shopping w/ an unlimited amount of money and transportation to where ever i want to go. i dont think anyone understands how happy that would make me.





story time:
omfg!! the other day my uncle told me and kammy to clean the kitchen and we was like we did it yetserday, which we both did. and he was like wells someone has to do it so clean it again.
erin- PSH!
kammy- PSH!
so he was like when i come back yall beter be cleaning. he came back. we werent. so he was like alright immah get my belt he was laughing a and junk so we assumed he was kidding so when he came back w/ a belt me and kammy jumped under the pillows like there was no tomorrow. me, kammy , and my uncle [ kammy's dad ] are all still laughing at this point. then he begins to hit kam. kammy ran away to go clean up. i stayed on the couch. then this a'hole actually hit me!! i didnt hurt toooo bad and he was jk but i dont think he shouldve hit me. so i walked to the back to WOOOSAHH. when he came back there and was basically like you know i could really whoop you if i wanted to. so being the person that i am was like PSHHHH! YOU MUST BE CRRAZZZYYY!!! blah blah blah talking talking and hes like immah call yo auntie and so what she thinks [ im very close w/ my aunt we joke and kid aound alot ] so im like okay w.e. so he goes outside to try and catch her before she leaves [ i think she was going to the mall or something ] and i later found out that she was like you handle it because she thought we was all still playing around. this crazy came in and called my mama so he could ask her to tell me that he could whoop me if he wanted. i knew she would. that didnt matter to me because ... well because i said so ! lol. anywho ..
so the day later that day my god cousins mom had asked me to come over and talk abut what happened. so me and kammy went over there and in the middle of telling her the story my auntie walks in.[ i hadent seen her sense she left earlier ] blah blah. she hears my side of the story and is like ok we need to go talk to him about this. blah blah. so we walk over there and confront him. OMFG! me, my dearest auntie, and kammy could barely get a word in edgewise !!! gosh! but w.e. we came to an understanding that he insnt to try to discipline me in any way. this slut caught an attitude and was like sense act grown hes jess gonnah let me be grown and not ask me to do anything and let me come and go as i please [ he always got mad because i would go back ad forth from my house to my god cousins house late at nigh. omg! that live in the same complex for cry'n out load!! ]. so now we dont talk. i guess idc i jess hope i didnt burn any bridges for if i need him in the future.
"/




lmao. my mother said she was the fashionesta of snellville today. ew, no. <3




uhmmm. what else is there ...
oh yeah, im goin to six flags tomorrow and i have nothing to wear. :[[

oh yeah. ahahha. we went the knotts berry farm the other day. and kammy ditched me and m god cousin because she was gett'n on his nerves and he wanted to hang out w/ his hoes. now i had no problem w/ this but she did. it was actually semi-hilarious because she was freaking out about how she does all this junk for him and jess gonnah ditch her like that. but them she started to piss me of because she didnt want to ride anything because she was so distraught over kammy. but we saw one of kammy's friends there and they became like besties in 3o seconds !! lol!! even though theres like a 4 year age diff between the two. ahaha. weirdos.


anywho .. im hungry but theres nothing to eat really. maybe i'll aim kammy... or not.


w.e.
i guess thats about it.




sighned, YOUR DADS FAV GUUURL :]]

-- awesome.

i chot it !

okay sooooo i got the industrial on saturday,
Fuxin' 72.80 + 5.00 for some junk to was it...
i like it though, people get scared when they see it. he he, black people.

shame

okay so i'm off punishment but  i'm still angry. I had to have a therapy session with my dad to get my stuff back. I still didn't get my card back. Anyway, I'm not doing anything else this weekend but my literature work because the book is due back on the 16 so i really have to finish that. This morning i mostly just worked out and looked for how much it would cost to get a couple piercings. I looked for a piercing parlor close to me and it was only ONE. I was kinda mad about that because they look mad ghetto, I'm not gonna drop any names lol. But I'm looking to get a industrial, second earlobe and nose piercing. I'm waiting 'til later to get the nose piercing...

gone.

my mind feels at times completely absent from my body, like last night i laid in my closet and with the door closed gazed in the darkness...for a while.

I hate this summer. I'm able to take advantage of it as i should...its suppose to be those few months that you don't have to think hard at all, you never write anything, and you just do anything stay up late and get uglier because you don't get any rest...

I been completely raped of mine.

FUCK !

I read the entire day...finished 'Jane Eyre', the most boring book i ever read. It had its moments when it got interesting but it wasn't many. I slowly read through 682 pages. I think it took me a week. It's due back on the 16. I have time to finish up this stupid paper i have to write for it. And all the other random ass assignments that i have to do for the novel analysis.

I have music playing that i'm not really listening to, I guess it's just soothing right now. I have a knife on my desk along with a notebook and a glass...

Don't worry [if you care] i'm not planning anything. The knife i used at like exactly 12 hours ago [1:15p] i was cutting open an apple to see if it was okay to eat. Because this bag of apples had been in this like container on the kitchen table for months and no one knew they were there. I just happened to be sitting at the table and i smelled them...they smelled good. :)

I forgot i had put them there one day while i was cleaning. Upon this discovery i decided i would keep them for myself because i don't eat all day til late at night and i'll eat some popcorn or something. I'm not starving myself, my grandma can't cook well...i don't think she's a real grandma. She only knows how to fry things and make a salad. Today she made fried porkchops and cabbage and rice. I like cabbage and i hadn't ate in a while so i ate this meal. It was koo, i think the cabbage needed a little more seasoning but hot sauce fixed that lol!

Anyways it was okay. My dad out of nowhere said to me i was doing a good job cleaning the kitchen...i just said thanks and then he proceeded to tell me what i needed to do tonight while cleaning the kitchen. And now he's standing behind me blowing his nose.......................

 okay he's gone.

I was on myspace and just happen to look at one of my little sisters pages and this chick has a tattoo on her foot ! she's 14 well 15 today. wtf...how does she have a tat before me? I'm older...

hmmm....i guess it's because i'm the only one who lives with my wannabe young crazed father.

thats a beesh.

`coolbeans.

Hiatus

M.I.A. thats what i was for these past weeks... i know, nothing new. I assure you there's a valid reason... my internet wasn't working for all this time :(. But now it's back YAY ! I'm indeed still on punishment and i've been super emotional lately, hmmm...i think i'm suffering a Mariah Carey breakdown...lol, not quite. 

I'm bored. Listening to music...wishing i had my phone and my i-pod. I downloaded new music. I just remembered that my headphones has a short in one of them. I need to buy new ones. Okay so anyway because of this stupid punishment my whole summer has been fucked over. All my plans ruined ! I wanted to go to visit my mom starting July first and spend the rest of the summer. The only reason i didn't go sooner is because my bestfriend came from Philly just to hang with me and my dad said that he was taking me on college visits. I haven't been on one yet ! I only hungout with my friend once and it wasn't entirely enjoyable because were unsure of our financial situation. That night was fun though and scary ! I wish i could express better thoughts right now but i can't sooo.... until then...

coolbeansxx